hey people!

first post for the year hahahaha :D

how's ur year been so far? seems a bit too early to say haha =x

anyways... i guess this would be quite a big year for me. i dont know. but so far, it looks to be a year where im gonna take on greater responsibilities. for one, im gonna take the new yr8 girls for cell this year. wonder how it would turn out. but at any rate, i would say im cautiously excited for it xD excited cos its something that ive been looking forward too haha. cautious because i really dont know what might happen =/ life is like a big ball of everything and nothing. everything could happen in this year, yet nothing could happen. a year of possibilities. =|

daring to dream again...
my pastor gave a message a while ago. last week i think. about dreams and what breaks them. and what we are without dreams.
really spoke to me haha.
i feel like for too long ive stopped dreaming. just had enough of disappointment, hope unfulfilled. had enough of failed expectations. just stopped dreaming, stopped expecting, didnt want to be disappointed again. but i guess u can say that it just came to the point where i was just doing things because i felt the need to do them. for the sake of it. and stopped dreaming about how things can be better. knowing that things can be improved but just not bothering about how. letting the world go on the way it is.
i feel that when i came over, i came over with dreams that were linked to di. to who i was in sg. and i carried them over. but the fact was that my dreams werent moving along the way i had. i had dreams and expectations that were broken because i had to move on. and i guess the fact is that i never quite came to terms with that. what i wanted to do, what i hoped to become, was all linked to who i was in sg. and i guess u can say that coming over just killed all of it.
there are things i want, things i want to do. i dont know.
maybe i just didnt move on the way i thought i did.
maybe i really just had enough.
at any rate, my dreams broke, and i havent dreamt much anymore since =/

what do i want to do with my life? what are the dreams that ive had that i havent dared believe in?
there has always been a dream man. xD i'll be upfront haha. i guess i dream of entering into a relationship with the man that is perfect for me. always been a dream, one that ive never quite dared to believe in. but maybe, just maybe, this year will be the year it would be fulfilled. xD
i dream of making a difference. i dream of making an impact, of changing the world i live in, even if just a little. its a dream i had, a dream i still have. something that i am still clinging onto, even if just by my fingertips. but yes, it is a dream i had, and still want to believe in.
do i have the faith to believe again? =|
i dream of impacting the next generation. i dream of being someone who would speak into peoples lives, changing them for the better. i dream of being a teacher. i want to be a mentor, a guide. someone who can provide advice.
i dream...

i dream of so much more. i dream of something greater. i dream of big things. i dream of going deeper, further, for longer. i dream of so much. i dont know how to put it into words. how do u really describe what u are dreaming for?

life could be so much more. =|

trying to rebuild my dreams.