hello ppl!

whoo post-exam holiday life is really kinda crazy... lolol.
was out virtually the whole day today... went a friends house for lunch, then sent that friend to the airport. after that, went a friends house to chill for awhile, then went for bball! xD and dinner after that. heh.
ohoh and supper with the family! xD <333

hm guess i was kinda pushed out of my comfort zone? hanging with ppl i dont normally spend alot of time with. so yea... xD and bball was like with 7 other guys... =/ but yea, i dont really mind luh. but i need to be careful...
and guys are such horny ppl. -.-

but yea. in general, i figure that guys are much funner ppl to hang out with. went yum cha with 3 other guys just last fri. then sat at this bubble tea place waiting for another girl to come. then we went this mind-cafe inspired place. like we went in, then me and the other girl was like this reminds us of mind cafe. the one near bugis there. and the person knew what we were talking about heh. played for about 1hr only... cos we had to go somewhere after that... but yea. was fun. =D except that i absolutely fail at games that require a fast reflex. that includes sport. =/ oh well. but yea xD definitely going back heh. =D

just one thing though i guess. whats with the drinking culture here? its something that i will never get...
the other day, at the bubble tea place (utopia) we started talking about drinking for some reason. then my friend asked me, have u drunk before? and i was like no... and she was like "so innocent!" -.-
not like i havent tasted alcohol before. but really drinking? nah...
i guess the whole point is that there is a much lesser drinking culture in sg than there is here. and theres no time for parties and stuff in sg anyway. not really, and at least not among the crowd that i hang with. so innocent? i dont think so. been to a party with drinks before. if i wanted to, i could have. but i din. so its not so much innocence than restraint. although i have to admit im alot less exposed to things like this than most other ppl who've grown up in this kinda environment. so yea. i dont really know what to say. except that drinking doesnt make someone any worse than someone that doesnt drink.
i guess my only real objection against drinking is that it can be degrading. like u can just lose urself and do silly things. so yea. i dont really know. like people say, everything in moderation. and i think some people need to try it to really know how bad it can get, before knowing when to stop next time. i guess if i ever really drink, i'll make sure my first time is with people i really trust. and not just random ppl. u never know what can happen. in the meantime, i'll protect myself and keep away from alcohol as much as possible. =/

hm anyway... sometimes i really dont know if im doing the right thing or not. like today... by the end of it, it was me and 3 other guys. =/ life. so hard making decisions sometimes. sometimes its like just go with the flow. but then again... =/
its hard to express. but sometimes u feel like ur just tied in a knot and its easier to go the path of least resistance. but then again, u want to do the right thing. and the path of least resistance doesnt seem to be the path of least resistance. i really dont know man. sigh. =/

the only thing i can really do, is to trust God. thats the only way. God is always in control, no matter ur circumstance. and u can trust God to lead u on the right path.
i think for me right now, its not to throw away negative emotions and worry, but to lay it all down at Jesus' feet. and let God lead. =)

you lead, and i follow.