heyyy everyone!

hahaha im back xD
just finished my mocks on tues... xD english was just normal luh. feel like i screwed up the compo =/ physics was hard, math was kinda worse, human bio was ok, kinda hard, chem was alright. lol. i reckon chem was the easiest... xD lol. but yea... xD just kinda glad that mocks are over now. can take a slight breather before starting a holiday study plan...

to be honest i din even really do much for this exams... most of the stuff i ended up cramming last minute. lol. not the best idea, and the first time im actually cramming cramming, but still ok i guess... i know i wont do too badly. xD but i guess in a way it means i have more stamina to study for wace exams... i dont really know. but well, its over and done, so yay! xD

now i need to plan my study timetable for the hols. i have to... or else i'll end up wasting time and everything. =/ im super disorganized unless i plan properly... lol xD but yea, i have 2 weeks break from now, then one week of school, and one more week study break, and then exams! for 2 weeks... finish on wed of the second week, yay! 9 nov. can work/play/watever after that. xD but thats till then... now must focus on studies first xD

i realised that unless i plan to do smth, i'll end up not doing it and all. =/ and wait till i finish other stuff before doing it. which is not the best idea, considering sometimes there are deadlines to be met. sigh. but oh well, i still get everything done in the end xD

anyway, on a more spiritual level...
i guess im more settled now. like not so worried, not so fustrated and all. i guess i came to a few realisations.
1: God loves me
2: The past has no hold on me
3: God is in control, always.
yea... xD
im thinking of changing church now actually. started going to another one, and it really did something in me. and yea... =)
but for now, i need to spend more time with God. spend more time in his presence. just drinking, and ignoring all else. to grow in the spirit. =)

and i, i'm desperate for you