heyyyy ppl

mm got back 3 papers today. lol first one 53(eng), second one 77(h.bio), third one 92(chem). hahaha. the range quite big... >< mm but seriously right im not really sure how to improve my english... man. rawr. i know for one that i prob dont put in enough detail into what i say... so that really costs me. sigh. some complaints as last time i guess. rawr. whyyyyyyyy >< lol one comment i got was paraphrasing, little detail, some commentary, good expression. lol. 'good expression'? i used to think my expression was really bad... looks like i have other things to work on now... sigh. ENGLISH WHY U SO HARD? >< and i dont think its as useful as AQ is for uni... meh. oh well. gotta work on it...
human bio... lol i aced one of the essays, and flunked the other one. lol. mm i think the thing is that some of the questions are abit ambiguous. like the answer isnt really like fr the textbook or stuff. like u have to really be able to connect the dots. oh well. its the first exam, so not that bad i guess.
haha chem... last paper that i got back today. quite happy with my result... but got careless mistakes >< oh well. learnt some things from the exam. which is good xD lol my teacher so slack... din even bother going through the paper... just let us check answer key by ourself. zz. but not that many problems though... but i want to have a look at my paper again. just to cement what i think ive learnt from it. xD

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mm the past few days were really fun. xD went out virtually everyday since exams ended hahahaha. city on thurs, brunch on fri + kinetic, city/ktv on sat, freo on sun, friends over on mon. heh.

mm so yesterday my friends came over. arranged to meet at 10 to buy ingredients. lolol but the guys overslept... -.- so me and michelle went to buy ingredients first. like nori, cucumber etc. then we went jon's house to wait for him... lol he woke up at like 10 and called me saying he just woke up... lol. mm then the other guys were all at his house alr, so basically we were just waiting for jon to finish bathing lol. so lame zz. like girl liddat lol. hahaha so when he was finally ready, we went to IGA again to buy roasted chicken. lol. and eggs... xD
then walked to my house... prepared the ingredients... lol there was one point of time when the girls were gaming and the guys were in the kitchen. heh. funny xD lol reminds me of that time p6 reunion bbq... then the girls were the ones cooking and the guys were like just chilling lol. hahahaha role reversal ;D pity i din take a photo xD good thing that the guys we invited were nice enough to help out in the kitchen xD hahahaha so yea... after everything was ready, we started making sushi... hahaha wasnt too bad... xD but the guys kinda fooled around... lol. but yum! xD
after that gamed abit, then went out to play. the guys went out first, me, nat and michelle stayed back to clean up and stuff. mm then went to meet them... soccer, basketball and monkey lol. mm my basketball skills gone alr... can barely shoot. plus arms no strength... >< haha i should start playing more often. xD
round 3 something we went back to my house, then gamed somemore lol.
nat stayed for dinner... her dad has been away for bout a week i think. not sure why they left nat alone, but anyway...
it was fun. haha. and the guys helped out, so thats good yay. xD but hor, the basketball wasnt shuang enough sigh. cos it wasnt really like a proper game... barely sweated at all... aiyah nvm luh xD
squadmates! bball together! =D

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mm yest i watched nat's convo with this other guy on fb... why do we like confident people? why do we want to be like them? what keeps us from being ourself?

these questions are really hard to answer. but i guess i realise that the 'confident people' we see, may really only be a shell. like they put on a 'confident' mask, so that people dont see whats really inside. but there are also people whose confidence kinda just flows from inside out. like they're not proud, but they have this quiet confidence. it kinda just attracts people to them. i dunno. but the 'confident' aura is really very attractive xD

i find that it was easier to really be myself in sg. like i can just dont care and just be myself with my friends. doesnt matter if i laugh or cry or simply go crazy. xD but here... i cant really do that. i havent fully adjusted yet. like i dont know whats the best way to present myself to the people around me. i want to be natural, yet not appearing like i try too hard or anything. dont know the culture here that well yet... sigh. i guess at the moment i'll just try to be myself as much as i can. friendly, smiling, open. xD

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a friend said that i look sad when im not smiling. really? =/