posting alot recently... i guess i just dont wanna do work. sigh.

sometimes life feels so pointless. like everyday is a struggle, why cant things just be simpler? rawr. waiting for the day i dont have to fight every single day. sigh. it can get so tiring! >< but i guess i really need to rely on God's strength. and his grace.
mm today just attended this conference. talking about the relationship between Israel and the church. and how we're kinda waiting for the gospel to travel full circle, for the Israel church to rise up. and then Christ will come. =D the gospel started among the jews, and it will end there. and all the jews will be saved. i think the message is really impacting. its like how the hearts of the jews are purposely hardened, so that the gospel will travel to the nations. and then, it will go back again. just think of it. God could choose to save only his chosen people, but he views everyone as one and the same. so we, the non-jews, also have a chance to be saved. coolios. xD mm then there was a part about grace. cos like the kingdom of God is based on the law. and when Jesus is king, it will also be ruled by law. except, the standard is higher. and we cant reach it... but by God's grace, we will be able to meet God's standards and enter the kingdom.
i really need God's grace now. to help me make decisions, to help me do the right things.

haiz. life is a daily struggle. thank god for grace that leads me through. =)